10 Day Juice Diet

I am going to try this ten day diet in hopes that it will lead me to better health.
Today is day one and I am in bad shape. It is 6:49am and I already have a headache, most likely from the half a pound of ground beef I had with my nachos and cookie last night. It was a rookie move on my part and I am suffering for it. I also would have smoked some cigar by now and I am using this to help relieve me of that habit as well.
My plan is to blog about my journey everyday. So lets start with the weight, which I am super embarrassed to write out where others can see, 213.6lbs. That was so hard to type but I need to be honest. I have never been so heavy in my life and I feel stupid because even if I lose 10lb in the next 10 days I am still heavier than I was a few months ago. I need this to be a lifestyle change for me and not a band-aid like these "schemes" have been for me in the past. I also eat worse now than I did before I became pregnant and now with a nine month old I have to snap myself back into shape and get healthy for him so I can be a role model in every way possible.
The strange part is I for the most part enjoy fruits and vegetables and I still rarely eat more than lets say three a week. It is shameful. My son has them at every meal. If I know enough to not feed all of this shit to my son than I need to get myself together so I can keep up with him once he starts walking.
Like I said I am embarrassed that I ever let myself get this out of control but this is me trying to regain some control of my life. I think having the C-Section really threw me for a loop and I have nor been the same since, like I gave up because everything was out of my control anyway. (I had decided on a natural home birth in a tub and ended up not only in a hospital but under the knife). I have never talked about this before and that is why I want to blog this experience because for me writing brings up/out all kinds of things I never realized existed. I am hoping with this ten days I can let go of all the trauma that has been holding my hostage in my own ever growing (soon to be ever shrinking) body.